Life.passion!

tic –> year 1999.

toc-> 10 , 10 years now 2009.

It’s has been about 10 years, my grandpa (公公) left us. That was the first time I attended a funeral of my family.

That was time before count down to year 2000, millennium year; (A year that was predicted to have many calamities and also Y2K computer bug, yet nothing serious was happened)

We’re lucky to get an invitation card to Count Down celebration from Bercham Branch KFC after having meal there, yet an extra one from Two mens of next table, which they just leave it on our table.

Which then we could use the extra one invitation card to invite neighbour friend to join us for the count down celebration at Pizza Hut at Ipoh South. That was for the first time my family members, 4 of us together for this event, and get some souvenir and gift afterwards.

That time ago, just mum and my brother and myself are having KFC there, those days of KFC had become memories. 

Years of going through secondary school life until now, was to discover that I’m struggling to find what’s my goal and where should I aim for in my life.

Just nearly this 10 years, I learnt that Persistence, Perseverance, Diligence, Hard Work, Concentrate, Focus, Calm, and Patience, and Faith, are key to success in life, and many things… also the ingredients, better known as solution to many problems in life…

After all, I don’t own much of above qualities in the past, and grew a wide interest in many areas, in music, computing, and many other talents, and skill.. Especially computing.

Within the timeframe, I pick up guitar, as inspired by my father… and learn to master it… and eventually I learnt that it’s best to patiently learn the music theory also.

In these years, there were quarrels that I made.. and I learn that I’m just don’t own the above qualities in my behaviour.. that’s the reason of every quarrels, and problems…

People entering my life, and leaving…… Have I been treasuring friends and making contact with them? Well, frankly, it’s important to appreciate the moments than to always recall the past…. which is far more harder than doing it in the present…

10 years of experimenting in life… I just feel like I’m just “leveling” & changing myself to adapt to the living environment… After all.. time just slips away in works, studies, and exams, as well as sleeping, eating, and playing…

The next 10 years, Looking forwards to it..

**And a little bit out of topic talk is that… when things come in pair.. it looks much friendlier and sounds cuter? ie…. “bye bye” is better than just saying “bye”.. Adios, Reminiscing the past is good, but have to let it go in order to move on… Appreciate now, and a past is a history, a future is a mystery, and today is a present!

忽然， 生活变得不规律。生活作息失调、失眠夜晚、没有早餐的日，渐渐地迷失生活方向感。。。

由于某时的工作和读书方面的压力，不平衡的情绪；因此偶尔耽误睡觉时间，只为了想要在一天结束前花些时间寻找一些平衡情绪的事物，就如看戏，玩电玩，音乐，等等。。后来发现，每一天的生活也因该是要平衡的。总不能有些日子拼命享乐，然后另一些日子埋头苦干。极端的，终究会“变质”。

在享乐的日子里，事物因每一天而失去新鲜感，慢慢的因为无所事事，自己变得懒散，内心因而空虚。
在苦干的日子里，因为之前的生活态度耽误了时间，因此背着压力，苦苦逼自己去做，变得喘不过气。

往往，历史总是一直在重复。生活就好像一不小心就很容易会堕落。或许不是每个人都能想象那会遇到这样的窘境，其实因为那是一种幸福没有在生活中迷失。是因为身边的人给予的幸福。就像有父母、朋友、师长、亲人，各方面给予的照顾与协助。那种生活感觉应该就是所谓的归宿感。我就是发现到在缺乏与身边的人维持良好的关系，因为变得孤单寂寞。一个人没有适当的社交，没有坚持的信仰。。。好像真的很容易迷失。能够知道自己迷失了是第一步，下一步就是如何找回自己。。。

以前有规律的生活时，对其感到厌倦，总是想要逃离规律的生活方式，迷失后就发现规律的生活的美好。人好像总是有点矛盾，往往是容易产生对另一反方面的遐想。到头来的结论，还是由古至今的一句：“中庸，平衡”才是生活之道。

一旦迷失了，本末倒置的生活，慢慢的就会弄垮身体。意志变得薄弱，渐渐愈来愈没有生活方向感。就连什么时候睡觉，什么时候吃也变得乱了。。。糊涂错过的早晨 ，茫然的中午，疲累的傍晚，随便的晚餐，无所事事的晚上，挣扎难眠的夜晚。。。。。。。生病，就像是自然的调整讯号，促使身体回归自然的作息方式。

     很想寻找自己生活的归宿，想必就是要依照规律的生活方式，放下心头不平衡的情绪，学习好好的呼吸，学习静，定下心神，回归自然的“该睡则睡，该喝则喝”的原则。。。保持中庸的想法。。。

     希望每一天都可以享用到早餐。。。体会到美好的开始。。。

These days, get quite some Enya songs from friends. Most of the genre are new age, I quite like it. It sounds special, and could always make my mind and soul infused with some emotions, and thoughts.

     Often I find that life it can be full of miracles, and “surprise”. I think I really want to create some miracles in my life, make it wonderful, make it fruitful. I find that memories, its like a complex network. The recent research come across ‘neural network’, about neurons, and perceptron,  nodes linking together; and a senior explained to me that when we do something special, and we would tend to remember, it becomes, it sends a stronger signal…, compare to something usual, which the signal is weaker, and tends to be forgotten… Back to present, somehow I felt that in my life some unresolved nodes from the past it would have actually “be processed” one day in my brain network.. it’s one miracle.

     Sometimes after watching some movies about time travelling, and seeing some miracle happenings, and touching moments in the movie scenes, it just inspires me much to have a time travelling journey… (only if possible). Yesterday, it’s a history, a lesson, a past; today, now is a “present”, and tomorrow is a wonder… Although life seems very plain with nothing much to do, if we could link up things in long term we would find the meaning of life and everything…. it’s another miracle. It’s just like many events and knowledge and more…. it takes years, and time to develop, and to achieve it…

     Today, here this moment, listening to Enya songs of New Age genre… weather is a bit cold in the November, it’s near the year end. I’m feeling empty here. In the past, I couldn’t do anything, lost also because the emptiness feeling in life, couldn’t stay focus, or concentrate… In fact, now I have realized seeking outer influence to fill up emptiness is temporary. I seems only can find way to fill it up in time, by linking the memories and life experience, moments, and thoughts…. make a goal, for myself…

     *that’s why I like new age music, it infuses some emotions and triggering thinking… besides, it soothes loneliness, and often burn up the passion…

“this is something particularly special, discovered recently…” - weelau

含义：静能生慧:在平静安逸之中增长智慧、

佛家语:"灵台清静，静能生慧，慧能生智。”

道家也说 "静能生定,定能生慧 ."

儒家亦认为“静能生慧”。

“it seems that only when we’re calm, then only we would be able to concentrate, and able to grasp some wisdoms..”

《昭德新编》说：“水静极则形象明，心静极则智慧生。”《延乎答问录》：“盖心下热闹，如何看得道路出？须是静，方看得出。所谓静坐，只是打叠得心下无事，则道理始出。道理即出则心下愈明静矣。”《素问·上古天真论》指出：“恬淡虚无，真气从之，精神内守，病安从来？”陶弘景说：“静者寿，躁者夭，静而不能养，减寿；躁而能养，延年。”

儒家、佛家、道家都认为,“静能生慧”,“静能开悟”,“静能正道”.

　　佛陀把智慧分为三种——“闻慧、思慧、修慧”，最关键的是修慧。通过修习内观可以获得智慧

　　戒、定、慧，是佛陀留给众生的教诲。也是引向顿悟的一条捷径。

　　要拒绝引诱，不再过份专注於外物，心才会达到静定，这就是戒的意义。心清静、意清静，智慧即会涌现。

　　后来有人把 '静能生慧,宁静致远 "合为一句.强调修身养性的必要性

source originally from  http://www.longquanzs.org/articledetail.php?id=7069

“I always see the four words “耕耘心田”at the usual laundry shop that I send my laundry… Somehow, the words seems inspiring too, the lookup today leads me to this article, which I feel like worth to have a read, and share… Success is still 99% Hard Works, plus only 1% talent.”  - weelau.

资料来源：佛学研究网 2009-08-12    作者： 星云法师     本站发表时间： 2009-08-14

    田地要靠农夫勤奋耕耘，才有硕果累累；佛教将我们的心比喻为田地，也需要靠开发、灌溉、播种、耕耘，种种诚心、毅力，才能成熟增上，成为一片净土。如何耕耘呢？可以从以下四个方向著眼：

    第一，播撒善美的种子：一颗种子看似微小，长大之后，却能开出无数的花、结出无数的果。假如我们在心田上播撒善美种子，如《无量义经》说： “布善种子，遍功德田，普令一切发菩提萌。”一念善心、一句美言、一件善事，在日常生活中慢慢累积，都是成熟无限未来的好因好缘。如经中譬喻，小小尼拘陀树种子，可以结出成千上万果实，因此，千万不能轻忽小小的一颗善美种子。

    第二，灌溉忏悔的法水：衣服脏了，经过清洗，才能穿得舒服；身体污垢，也要沐浴，才能神清气爽；环境污秽，必须打扫，才能住得舒适。我们的心受到污染，要以忏悔的法水洗涤，心地才能清明。《佛说未曾有因缘经》云：“前心作恶，如云覆月；后心起善，如炬消暗。”犯错不可耻，懂得忏悔改过，就能为自己找出一条光明大道。

    第三，施与肥沃的养分：花草树木，因为施肥，而开出美丽的花朵；我们的身体，有了饮食的补充及适当的休息，就能健康运作。相同的，我们的心，也需要施与勤劳、发心、慈悲、忍耐等种种良善的养分，才会有丰硕的成果。好比想拥有聪颖、通达、灵巧，必须施与智慧、明理、判断；祈愿人缘有所收成，就必须主动、结缘、关怀，人际之间就能自在、顺利。

    第四，启发心灵的智慧：语云：“心田不长无明草，性地常开智慧花。”农夫耕种，田里杂草不除，难有收成；心中的田地，长出无明草，若不拔除，遇事就容易为境所转、为情所困，难有所成。所谓“不怕无明起，只怕觉照迟”，无明起时，懂得觉照内心，当下降伏，智慧自然会现前。

    外在的田地容易耕种、收成，内在的心田却不易开发、耕耘。虽然不容易，只要肯发心发愿，勤奋努力，用功踏实，必定能成就自己的一片心灵净土。

编辑：菁萱