tic –> year 1999.

toc-> 10 , 10 years now 2009.

It’s has been about 10 years, my grandpa (公公) left us. That was the first time I attended a funeral of my family.

That was time before count down to year 2000, millennium year; (A year that was predicted to have many calamities and also Y2K computer bug, yet nothing serious was happened)

We’re lucky to get an invitation card to Count Down celebration from Bercham Branch KFC after having meal there, yet an extra one from Two mens of next table, which they just leave it on our table.

Which then we could use the extra one invitation card to invite neighbour friend to join us for the count down celebration at Pizza Hut at Ipoh South. That was for the first time my family members, 4 of us together for this event, and get some souvenir and gift afterwards.

That time ago, just mum and my brother and myself are having KFC there, those days of KFC had become memories. 

Years of going through secondary school life until now, was to discover that I’m struggling to find what’s my goal and where should I aim for in my life.

Just nearly this 10 years, I learnt that Persistence, Perseverance, Diligence, Hard Work, Concentrate, Focus, Calm, and Patience, and Faith, are key to success in life, and many things… also the ingredients, better known as solution to many problems in life…

After all, I don’t own much of above qualities in the past, and grew a wide interest in many areas, in music, computing, and many other talents, and skill.. Especially computing.

Within the timeframe, I pick up guitar, as inspired by my father… and learn to master it… and eventually I learnt that it’s best to patiently learn the music theory also.

In these years, there were quarrels that I made.. and I learn that I’m just don’t own the above qualities in my behaviour.. that’s the reason of every quarrels, and problems…

People entering my life, and leaving…… Have I been treasuring friends and making contact with them? Well, frankly, it’s important to appreciate the moments than to always recall the past…. which is far more harder than doing it in the present…

10 years of experimenting in life… I just feel like I’m just “leveling” & changing myself to adapt to the living environment… After all.. time just slips away in works, studies, and exams, as well as sleeping, eating, and playing…

The next 10 years, Looking forwards to it..

**And a little bit out of topic talk is that… when things come in pair.. it looks much friendlier and sounds cuter? ie…. “bye bye” is better than just saying “bye”.. Adios, Reminiscing the past is good, but have to let it go in order to move on… Appreciate now, and a past is a history, a future is a mystery, and today is a present!

忽然， 生活变得不规律。生活作息失调、失眠夜晚、没有早餐的日，渐渐地迷失生活方向感。。。

由于某时的工作和读书方面的压力，不平衡的情绪；因此偶尔耽误睡觉时间，只为了想要在一天结束前花些时间寻找一些平衡情绪的事物，就如看戏，玩电玩，音乐，等等。。后来发现，每一天的生活也因该是要平衡的。总不能有些日子拼命享乐，然后另一些日子埋头苦干。极端的，终究会“变质”。

在享乐的日子里，事物因每一天而失去新鲜感，慢慢的因为无所事事，自己变得懒散，内心因而空虚。
在苦干的日子里，因为之前的生活态度耽误了时间，因此背着压力，苦苦逼自己去做，变得喘不过气。

往往，历史总是一直在重复。生活就好像一不小心就很容易会堕落。或许不是每个人都能想象那会遇到这样的窘境，其实因为那是一种幸福没有在生活中迷失。是因为身边的人给予的幸福。就像有父母、朋友、师长、亲人，各方面给予的照顾与协助。那种生活感觉应该就是所谓的归宿感。我就是发现到在缺乏与身边的人维持良好的关系，因为变得孤单寂寞。一个人没有适当的社交，没有坚持的信仰。。。好像真的很容易迷失。能够知道自己迷失了是第一步，下一步就是如何找回自己。。。

以前有规律的生活时，对其感到厌倦，总是想要逃离规律的生活方式，迷失后就发现规律的生活的美好。人好像总是有点矛盾，往往是容易产生对另一反方面的遐想。到头来的结论，还是由古至今的一句：“中庸，平衡”才是生活之道。

一旦迷失了，本末倒置的生活，慢慢的就会弄垮身体。意志变得薄弱，渐渐愈来愈没有生活方向感。就连什么时候睡觉，什么时候吃也变得乱了。。。糊涂错过的早晨 ，茫然的中午，疲累的傍晚，随便的晚餐，无所事事的晚上，挣扎难眠的夜晚。。。。。。。生病，就像是自然的调整讯号，促使身体回归自然的作息方式。

     很想寻找自己生活的归宿，想必就是要依照规律的生活方式，放下心头不平衡的情绪，学习好好的呼吸，学习静，定下心神，回归自然的“该睡则睡，该喝则喝”的原则。。。保持中庸的想法。。。

     希望每一天都可以享用到早餐。。。体会到美好的开始。。。

These days, get quite some Enya songs from friends. Most of the genre are new age, I quite like it. It sounds special, and could always make my mind and soul infused with some emotions, and thoughts.

     Often I find that life it can be full of miracles, and “surprise”. I think I really want to create some miracles in my life, make it wonderful, make it fruitful. I find that memories, its like a complex network. The recent research come across ‘neural network’, about neurons, and perceptron,  nodes linking together; and a senior explained to me that when we do something special, and we would tend to remember, it becomes, it sends a stronger signal…, compare to something usual, which the signal is weaker, and tends to be forgotten… Back to present, somehow I felt that in my life some unresolved nodes from the past it would have actually “be processed” one day in my brain network.. it’s one miracle.

     Sometimes after watching some movies about time travelling, and seeing some miracle happenings, and touching moments in the movie scenes, it just inspires me much to have a time travelling journey… (only if possible). Yesterday, it’s a history, a lesson, a past; today, now is a “present”, and tomorrow is a wonder… Although life seems very plain with nothing much to do, if we could link up things in long term we would find the meaning of life and everything…. it’s another miracle. It’s just like many events and knowledge and more…. it takes years, and time to develop, and to achieve it…

     Today, here this moment, listening to Enya songs of New Age genre… weather is a bit cold in the November, it’s near the year end. I’m feeling empty here. In the past, I couldn’t do anything, lost also because the emptiness feeling in life, couldn’t stay focus, or concentrate… In fact, now I have realized seeking outer influence to fill up emptiness is temporary. I seems only can find way to fill it up in time, by linking the memories and life experience, moments, and thoughts…. make a goal, for myself…

     *that’s why I like new age music, it infuses some emotions and triggering thinking… besides, it soothes loneliness, and often burn up the passion…

“this is something particularly special, discovered recently…” - weelau

含义：静能生慧:在平静安逸之中增长智慧、

佛家语:"灵台清静，静能生慧，慧能生智。”

道家也说 "静能生定,定能生慧 ."

儒家亦认为“静能生慧”。

“it seems that only when we’re calm, then only we would be able to concentrate, and able to grasp some wisdoms..”

《昭德新编》说：“水静极则形象明，心静极则智慧生。”《延乎答问录》：“盖心下热闹，如何看得道路出？须是静，方看得出。所谓静坐，只是打叠得心下无事，则道理始出。道理即出则心下愈明静矣。”《素问·上古天真论》指出：“恬淡虚无，真气从之，精神内守，病安从来？”陶弘景说：“静者寿，躁者夭，静而不能养，减寿；躁而能养，延年。”

儒家、佛家、道家都认为,“静能生慧”,“静能开悟”,“静能正道”.

　　佛陀把智慧分为三种——“闻慧、思慧、修慧”，最关键的是修慧。通过修习内观可以获得智慧

　　戒、定、慧，是佛陀留给众生的教诲。也是引向顿悟的一条捷径。

　　要拒绝引诱，不再过份专注於外物，心才会达到静定，这就是戒的意义。心清静、意清静，智慧即会涌现。

　　后来有人把 '静能生慧,宁静致远 "合为一句.强调修身养性的必要性

source originally from  http://www.longquanzs.org/articledetail.php?id=7069

“I always see the four words “耕耘心田”at the usual laundry shop that I send my laundry… Somehow, the words seems inspiring too, the lookup today leads me to this article, which I feel like worth to have a read, and share… Success is still 99% Hard Works, plus only 1% talent.”  - weelau.

资料来源：佛学研究网 2009-08-12    作者： 星云法师     本站发表时间： 2009-08-14

    田地要靠农夫勤奋耕耘，才有硕果累累；佛教将我们的心比喻为田地，也需要靠开发、灌溉、播种、耕耘，种种诚心、毅力，才能成熟增上，成为一片净土。如何耕耘呢？可以从以下四个方向著眼：

    第一，播撒善美的种子：一颗种子看似微小，长大之后，却能开出无数的花、结出无数的果。假如我们在心田上播撒善美种子，如《无量义经》说： “布善种子，遍功德田，普令一切发菩提萌。”一念善心、一句美言、一件善事，在日常生活中慢慢累积，都是成熟无限未来的好因好缘。如经中譬喻，小小尼拘陀树种子，可以结出成千上万果实，因此，千万不能轻忽小小的一颗善美种子。

    第二，灌溉忏悔的法水：衣服脏了，经过清洗，才能穿得舒服；身体污垢，也要沐浴，才能神清气爽；环境污秽，必须打扫，才能住得舒适。我们的心受到污染，要以忏悔的法水洗涤，心地才能清明。《佛说未曾有因缘经》云：“前心作恶，如云覆月；后心起善，如炬消暗。”犯错不可耻，懂得忏悔改过，就能为自己找出一条光明大道。

    第三，施与肥沃的养分：花草树木，因为施肥，而开出美丽的花朵；我们的身体，有了饮食的补充及适当的休息，就能健康运作。相同的，我们的心，也需要施与勤劳、发心、慈悲、忍耐等种种良善的养分，才会有丰硕的成果。好比想拥有聪颖、通达、灵巧，必须施与智慧、明理、判断；祈愿人缘有所收成，就必须主动、结缘、关怀，人际之间就能自在、顺利。

    第四，启发心灵的智慧：语云：“心田不长无明草，性地常开智慧花。”农夫耕种，田里杂草不除，难有收成；心中的田地，长出无明草，若不拔除，遇事就容易为境所转、为情所困，难有所成。所谓“不怕无明起，只怕觉照迟”，无明起时，懂得觉照内心，当下降伏，智慧自然会现前。

    外在的田地容易耕种、收成，内在的心田却不易开发、耕耘。虽然不容易，只要肯发心发愿，勤奋努力，用功踏实，必定能成就自己的一片心灵净土。

编辑：菁萱

“Use your intelligence, wisdom and work smart, be happy to face and tackle all problem whenever it comes, always treat it as a challenge, take use to it, then, nothing will or can make u feel depress or desperate.” – Daddy, 05 Nov 2009.

“以后有开心或苦恼都可以向我们俩说 :) :)” – Mummy, 05 Nov 2009.

“我的儿子已经长大了，经一事长一智。”-Mummy, 05 Nov 2009.

thanks…, daddy, mummy.

It’s raining tonight. The last day of October 2009, Day-31. It’s quiet, and a little bit cold. I would turn off the stand fan sometimes, like now I do.

     About 10:40pm, I’m playing my guitar, did half step dropped tuning. When I’m to tune back to the standard tuning instead of relying on the software AP Tuner, I try with manual tuning. The result is breaking the 1st E-string. So before it’s about to break, it seems that “hold” onto a pitch for while, i.e. unable to raise the pitch any higher, and “plak”. That ended the string story. In reality, it just strike me a little, feeling miserable for some other things else at the same time.

The Guitar 1st E-string breaks…
(* note - clarify that 1st E-String refers to the thinnest E-String, as the 6th String is also an E-String)

it leads to some consequences…

     the GHS strings, [Bright Bronze XL] which has been kept for several years will shine now. This ovation-imitated acoustic guitar was bought in year 2004. (I think). It was after Form 5, and during the time I was working as an office boy in the Ipoh old town TongKC Architect Firm. My father bought this guitar for me on a day that after works at ‘Nam Fong’ music store. GHS strings has been my favourite since the early days of playing guitar. I told myself before, I would wait until the current strings breaks then only I would change it. The time of waiting has been really long… I guess now it’s really the right time to change it, as along with my music knowledge and skill levelling up to next phase… :D Just a bit nostalgia when think back of the strings I bought it last time a Ipoh Garden South, a guitar shop. It was somehow on promotion.. and the shop was closed down some time afterwards… The set of GHS strings just didn’t get its chance to be setup on guitar for quite few years after purchase. When it was unpack today, it’s still fresh, and in good condition. I will have to wait for the strings to season now after the setup, and tune it a few times to get settle in tune soon… (due to the natural stretching of the string)

     It took me an hour to replace the string… while doing it, I recall back of the early days of learning guitar… That my father bought me the first guitar, tune it for me every time when it get out of tune, and replaced the broken strings, taught me to play… I tune it first round, test the guitar, and play some harmonic tones..

     Somehow, it seems like finding a Rosetta Stone tonight, that I gain better understanding into Harmonic tone playing technique. It seems really true that playing at certain frets sounds brighter and fuller, probably due to the natural harmonic frequency?

     … … … … … …

     Many things seem to come into my mind tonight… Perhaps that's what make me feel some sort of emptiness, loneliness, and as if I’m deserted…

Now my guitar, it has new strings on, with Bright Bronze Colour String, it gain its new form, brighter tone than before, and I had gained the new harmonic playing skill…

Rosetta Stone ; noun[sing.] something, especially a discovery, that helps people to understand or find an explanation for a mystery or area of knowledge that not much was known about…           [Oxford Advanced Learner Dictionary]

     Wow… come across this word in the book Idiot’s Complete Guide to music theory. Well, it has been some time, if my blog is like a garden to me, it might have grown some weeds. Guess cleaning up from time to time, refreshing it… it’s good isn’t it? Hehe. It was after finishing the 51 episodes of “Kamen Rider Agito”, which the main character Shouichi had a small garden next to the house, growing vegetables.. and use them for cooking dishes; “Farming a little garden” it sounds inspiring to me.

     Recently seems like my brain and body undergone some evolutions?, previously there is a little unease, heat, hot inside, is it fatigue? Then now, bit better, seems like open up some discovery and sudden understanding of many things.

     Somehow the interest to further advanced my music knowledge comes back. This time, I wish I could learn deeper into music theory and better skill of applying it on musical instrument.. yea, guitar. :) Besides, at the moment of 3 months “holiday”, I’m having the current on-going final year project, which currently working on Matlab… Sometimes, I’m amazed that within the short 1 – 2 weeks, gain a considerably amount of understanding into using Matlab. It’s really how amazing that if all the neuron in the brain just suddenly get connected together, and expanding the link… hmm~ still only happened once enough understanding into applying “patience, persistence, focus, and attention…”

     While darling Mooi Lan has gone to China trip along with her mum, These days, it has been lonely, and quiet… After all, I just to get that, after a period of sinking in the valley of life, I want to wake up once again to learn something, and find back the passion in life… Most importantly, our body have to agree with our lifestyle, which is, our mind have to ask our body, is it feeling well today? And our action have to ensure it… Health, it’s getting vital…

In the early years of learning and playing guitar, I come across a guitar pick collection board displayed in my hometown (Ipoh) “Music Store” at Jusco. One of the pick inside which I found attractive was this type. The specialty could be having the 3 holes in its design. Unfortunately, the shop doesn’t sell it. But I thought, some day maybe I could get it by luck and opportunity.

Many years has gone since then, probably it has been nearly 5 years roughly. I saw this one today ! bought it at the One Utama, “Guitar Collection” shop. Hehe~ it’s the Jim Dunlop – “TECKPICK PAT.PEND” (carved on it). As can be found in their website: http://www.jimdunlop.com/index.php?page=products/pip&id=32&pmh=products/picks

This one is the picture of my pick~ probably can take it as “necklace” accessories? Well, I guess that’s probably why sometimes we have to travel abroad to look for it. We might saw something inspiring at hometown.(starting place), and yet travel far, to search and learn only we know that the world is bigger and found more~

this was the sketch enhanced today using Paint.net.. it was drawn some time ago for the Peer Helping Programme T-Shirt Design… anyway, just taking some old works to work with computer effect. Hehe.

It is the Kira-Lacus picture that based on its toy figure advertisement.

- Drawn with Pencil, and Artline Pen.
- Picture taken and transfer to computer using SE K618 phone
- Picture converted to B&W with Paint.net
- Slightly colour tweaked and sharpen.

It was ten years ago back in 1999, I’m starting to try on Starcraft which was famous during the time. I was standard six, at the age of 11 not quite understanding the english words in the game.

     It is 10 years later now, year 2009. I’m checking on this game during my Year 3 Semester 1 final exam period. Well, as my computer doesn’t support those new strategy game, so I’m trying some legacy games on this pentium III 866Mhz Laptop.

     The Original Starcraft Terran Campaign, the last level, the Hammer Falls, it was about the escape of Jim Raynor from Arcturus Mengsk (based on my interpretation of the storyline). The mission objective is to destroyed the Ion Cannon in order to successfully escape into space? (so not to be blown by the Cannon). So, what I found is, actually there is several ways to play the game. The orthodox and default way is to defeat all the enemy, thus destroying the cannon, sounds ideal. The quick way is to achieve the goal more aggressively, that’s just aim for the goal! From different points of view, there is no right or wrong way of choosing which to go for, except cheating… (but i’m going to talk about “thinking”).

     I find that usually we could find the weak spot, or so called the opportunity to attack. It just a matter of discovering. In the game, there are “fog of war”, where we can’t see the place that was not discovered, and also the place would be appeared grey out when there is no unit present at the location after a while. Sometimes this stop us from seeing the bigger picture, (it’s the same in life, as we usually live without knowing things and place beyond our observation). Although this give some fears to discover (as unit might be killed by potential enemy or lose of unit) it is actually also to shield ourselves from enemy direct observation. So as in life and also in strategy game, if we dare to explore we could find opportunity. this is really true, guess a simple idea, which sometimes we would easily forget this. This choice to discover and to grow, it’s not sometimes would just come by default, it really requires initiation of oneself.

     Secondly, after finding that there is a quick way to win, even losing my base in the game, which is using Terran Ghost unit to nuke the ion cannon in an invisible condition. (Cloaking). Hence I work towards the idea, while even having my base is attacked by enemy battlecruisers, gathered some Terran Ghost, and making nuclears from my remaining nuclear silo, and keep nuking towards victory. The idea behind is… sometimes we’re really easily diverted from achieving goal in a simple manner. The idea, “keep it simple” tends to be overlooked by glorious victory, which also requires really lots of effort and might potential lose. Which in this case, I can make troops, and units to clear up the white terran base, and claiming victory glorious by sweeping out each and every single unit… but what is the point? Making more casualties, and risk of not achieving the goal, who knows it might be defeated badly, when hard go against hard. so another lesson: Go against the hard, by hitting its weak spot, saved most effort, and most effective.

     Hence, anyway, back to the lesson from what is learnt from strategy game… always think out of the box, just a little bit of observation we might be able to find it, and it is always better to come out with a goal, and try an interesting way to achieve it… ;D

the current state of my desktop as of 24 September 2009.

which,I make use of the some downloaded rainmeter skins (which are nice looking one), and have it running on top of rainmeter engine, (plus personal customized each of them to fit better into my desktop). Really enjoy making skins and customized them now… hehe ;D Check out the customize.org then, it’s my favourite source for designs and to customized.

so I have come across this so called formula somewhere from newspaper. It sounds right and thus inspired me to have a thought on this. I wonder if that I’m getting lost, as if I really don’t know how to live a better life as growing older? when we’re young, we have entertainments to thought of, to keep every new day a wonderful day to enjoy, to look for a upcoming new games, new movies, new tv shows, new place to go, and new toys maybe? In short, does that mean as we grow older, we’re facing the loss of freshness ? and Thing are getting less appeal to us?

hypothesis: TRUE ? (based on observation as seeing many old people staying homes with nothing to do, and seeing my parents having their life simpler, and plain, being less interested in many things…) or simply the passion is fading? It seems that as we’re getting used to our lifestyle, becoming a HABIT (which I considered as dangerous), I wonder that most of we would forget to make “changes”, or to innovate. Life, always needs Improvements and Changes, Passion shall burns and burns again from time to time! Life should sparks!

     Talents, there is something comes with us, surely, it’s left for us to discover. We should make good use of it. My talents, I think it’s about innovation, and creation, organization, so I enjoy to build things, to program, to change, revise, and to improve things, as well as to sort my things, reorganizes… and hence I should look for something to do with would derive power from the gifted talent. That’s also what we should be right? Each of us look for things that we “could” do, and “love” to do in this life?

     Passion, sometimes, I admit I always lose the passion, but I think I’m also have understood how to ignite the passion. It was only get ignited when we’re doing the things that we’re enjoy doing it! So to put it simple, isn’t that we should always go for something that where our talents could be applied on? There must be a place, a way, for benefits to the society. I wish, and I hope more charities works would be done, and also more good and great things to come from doing passionate things.

     Attitude, some said, if each letter is given a number, A=1, Z=26, then attitude would sum up 100. Wow, then attitude does really matter in our life? Yes. It determines how we live then, so… I find that when we’re conform to our habits, and which our habits is not really “good” (well I guess we could judge it ourselves), then it’s not helpful to ourselves? I would like to link attitude and habit together, as “setting” as for computing stuff, which define how the stuff will behave in computer sense, attitude will be the “setting” for human ? Which define how we will behave under certain circumstances, and situation… Hence, I think it’s better to spend sometimes, put in some efforts to change my lifestyle then…

     Opportunity, guess this is much left for us to discover only, from the book ‘the secret’ I read, when we’re going to search for something in our life, automatically, “SOMEHOW” it will drive us to see the opportunity, well it may sounds wonder, but it’s actually the potential power that was imbued in ourselves. I think when we have a wish / desire, it would automatically strengthen our senses, and will to go towards our wish / desire, thus sub- consciously it drives us to discover, yes, opportunity; so make a wish today, and start to wish it , emit the will power to manifest it! (surely for the good!)

Firstly our life is limited, the world and the universe is unlimited, so vast, and so huge. It was from an email, I find these are interesting, When you are young, you use your health to chase wealth; when you are old, you use your wealth to buy back health. Ironically, most people lived in that way. Sometimes I’m wondering am I stepping behind the same path. (Based on my current living…). Besides there is no point earning money, but can’t live to spend it, and when we can’t spend it, the money isn’t ours. Lastly, how little a man needs, is how happy he is; and there is no point to work hard for people if we have no time to spend with them.

     One significant symptom is that, there is difficulty in recalling some memories. It seems like memories are fading. It requires some efforts to dig back some old memories. Partially it might be due to improper living lifestyle… When I was young I wasn’t quite understand in Buddha teaching, about the enlightenment and the state of mind and soul to achieve… which it brings long lasting happiness. Now only I realize, as time goes by, the process of aging, and increment in responsibilities in life, and exposure to difficulties; many factors it actually mind corrupting… That may explain why people getting difficult to sleep sounds when getting into adulthood…

     Looks like practice to control our mind, thinking, and to achieve some zen thoughts should be the path of focus by now… and not to ignore the importance of health…

Just as our environment would likely get to dusty, dirty and becoming messy; the same goes to our life. We all grew up from different background which is greatly affected our our environment. Certainly the environment refers to people and the living place. Negative comments turn down a person's own confidence and self esteem. This depicts how great impact is for a good parenting, and their children's future. According to sociology book I read, from Alex Thio, "Introduction to sociology", human is greatly affected by socialization, That's true. I'm vehemently agreed with it. A distorted growing environment would disturb the normal growth of a human. It is from socialization we learnt how to behave, and how to think, how we react to the society...

    Back here, I would like to say, if we would be kind, to give positive compliments to people around us, it would make the world a better place, with more positive energies. Living in this world where deterioration is a norm, and chaos is the nature, it requires consistent innovation, and positive improvement through a lot positive acts. These are: positive compliments, sincere words, believes, creative management, and diligent efforts to keep people around us positive, and environment in order. To keep the environment a better place to live on (as environment does affect us unconsciously), I do feel that it needs creative improvement and arrangement to the things around us. In my room, I have changed the furniture several times, made numerous small innovations. Changing my DIY cupboard into a small table is a recent deed. hehe.. ;)

    Lastly, I would like to say thank you to Mooi Lan, she inspired me that, giving sincere compliment is the best way to improve a person, and for myself, the creative management, and innovation is the best way to change the environment... all these requires consistent efforts, and thoughts.

    Just a the world is being negative, we should consistently learn what is to be ignored, and self motivated. There will always be something that can be us motivate ourselves, and most probably it's something, that so close to us. For me, changing the environments through numerous DIY efforts, and innovative approaches to make new stuff is the best source of motivation.

    Positive power requires consistent practice, as its healing power is somehow lesser than destructive negative energy. However, it's also the greatest, though intangible.

“Hehe…my look doink ma…i hope one day you could send me back your doink pic with a wide smile back to me…long time din look at your happy face liao…cheer up!”

简单，有意义。 It’s also part of hard work that burn up the passion, that comes the inspiration~

If we can “save” or stored our feeling, and thoughts at a time, in a special capsule, and we can review it in the future for unlimited time, isn’t that great ? That’s one of the purpose that why I’m writing. I just wish to pen down some thoughts and feelings, which I think it’s precious to me. It’s some memories, that help to shape the personality, and made me into what I am. However, in the reality, this is difficult to achieve. I can feel that “feeling, thoughts at a time” could hardly keep in mind for long. Some insights we gain from a past incidents will be just archived somewhere deep in our mind as time goes by. Soon or later, the key to dig the piece of memory will be fading.

     I always find that the meeting of ancestor, or to say the meeting of the past, and future at one time is very meaningful. This is like if we can go back in time to meet our parents which while they’re in the young age, and time before we’re born… Moreover, finding and re-discover something that we’ve lost for years, or something that we found, insights that we gained in the past, or message from the past… All these just so interesting and meaningful, to me.

     In these 20 plus years of experience, I learnt that most of the time, the fruitful outcome  doesn’t come in just one attempt, (there maybe luck) but most of the time, fruitful outcome only comes after several or to innumerable attempts. Something that we expected to get, usually would not be 100% as we expected, more or likely, it just fails as usual, just as if chaos is the norm. What I don’t much expected it just turns out to be in the reality. Sometimes, I’m just torn of living in a idealistic life, or a painful reality where we often don’t get what we want. Or in another word, we don’t really know what we want? back to the old saying, the more effort, and determination poured, the better, the fruitful the outcome will be, certainly it requires time, perseverance, and persistence...

     Me? I wish myself from my future would guide me from the past, and now. I wish I could think out of box, basically that’s to put ourselves out of our current situation, and to examine if there is a surprising move that would give some delights outcome to the situation, for this, we can see it in “chess”, a more advanced thinking…

     Thinking, modify, organize, are perks of being myself all these years. Something that seems like imbued into me long time ago… 

This screenshot shows the uTorrent that I’m using to download a 233MB movie, wow… completes within 33minutes with the awesome speed 120KB (Byte per second )(At least I never had such fast connection before with Streamyx, and Celcom 3g) This is just awesome for me. Hehehe, previously Streamyx at home was 512Kbps (bps - bit per second) @ RM66 per Month, Unlimited Usage? and Celcom Broadband 384Kbps @ RM68 per Month, 5GB fair usage, now Digi Broadband, Discover – Campus Plan with avg 700Kbps (I get nearly 1Mbps speed from speedtest.net and also download speed as above, 1Mbps / 8 =~ 128KBps for my area here), what more at RM58 per Month, though with 3 GB monthly usage allowance, plus there is a Free Modem for one year contract. That’s so good for me :)

The Story

After some “efforts” to switch… Finally I registered Digi Broadband: Discover Campus Plan today in the SS2 Digi Centre! :D

Cheers~

There are several great things and benefits got from this package. Feels quite happy and satisfied with the Digi broadband. Due the fact the I’m a Digi Postpaid user, I feel easier and comfortable to get support from their Helpline, since it’s free call for Digi user. :P Also many thanks to the Consultants that their advices has helped me get this broadband plan.

   The Free Modem, a Huawei USB HSDPA modem, E219 works with my laptop through the pcmcia USB adapter, it’s a miracle! So basically now I can have the Webcam, and the modem together plug to my Laptop! Hehe, I had a video call in Live Messenger with Mooi Lan just now. This dream day has come after such long since the time I come to UTAR, I wish to have the webcam works with my internet connection here.

   Well, at least all things are so smooth so the meantime, I get to sign in to My Windows live messenger much easier, and better stable connection. Fast download, and speedy surfing experience… Plus the benefit of USB modem, now I can have my computer works online while leaving another one USB port to be used. I feel so grateful now… at least much better than last time. :) [This save the money that I thought would have to use to buy a new laptop just to support the USB modem…]

15 July 2009 – I learn something today! It inspires me!

“Opportunity comes by and leaves in a hurry, that how I believe in the existence of opportunity. Decision making is the required skill to seize the opportunity.”

“Lesson of life can be learnt in two way, theoretically to be taught by people around us and without real understanding or experience of it; or we learn it in a hard way, with some sacrifices in the form of time, money, materials, and efforts; such as through a setback or failure.”

The story goes in this way; 13 July, I have decided to take up the Digi Broadband, and I have registered for Digi Discover plan with Modem package which cost MYR 58+15(modem fee) per month. I travelled to Asia Jaya LRT station, and walked to “Menara PKNS” to terminate my Celcom Broadband the next day on 14 of July. That night, I read from internet, and found out that there is actually a “Discover Campus Plan” for Digi broadband, which actually I had a glance before, but without further investigate,  there the story begins.

The Bus

     Since the “Discover” plan that I signed up, it has a 12 months contract; it gives me some difficulties to switch to the Discover Campus Plan. I found that the “Discover Campus Plan” is only available in participated Digi Centres. After a call to the Digi Broadband support line, I was suggested to terminate the current plan within 7 days. (therefore, I could get refund also I’m required to return the modem, will be charged for some prorated usage fee, and stamp duty.).

     Hence, I have decided to go to the SS2 Digi centre after the class today. Instead of waiting for the UTAR bus, I walk to the nearby “bus stop”. Just not long that I was there, a U85 RapidKL bus that would go to SS2 coming towards my direction, I could hire and get onto the bus for RM2 (One day unlimited ride fare) or wait for the Metrobus, which would cost RM1 per ride SS2 - Section 17… However, in the end of the day, I actually let the “opportunity” slips.. because I didn’t seize it, unable to think fast and decide to take U85 at the beginning, cost me to lose in term of time. If I would have taken the U85 RapidKL bus, I get to travel to SS2 earlier, save the time of waiting for Metrobus.

Analysis: I was hesitate in the beginning to due to uncertainty that if I’m lucky enough to get U85 from SS2, and without spending up to RM3 (max if take U85 + Metrobus for total travel fee.) The point is, money, should be lower priority compare to time (in this case) and there actually is opportunity for me to save money and time, but I let it slips away. This makes me realize for how many chances and occasions I have not seized well in my life. Though this incident is just a simple example, such other example, if I have determined my future earlier, and understand the meaning of study… what would I be today? However, no regrets, let’s learn to seize the opportunity, (NOW), and to be a successful person. Moreover this also reflects how decision making can be very crucial and important to ensure smoothness, and ease of life. “The ability to compute faster would put urself ahead of others”, Prof Tsang, external examiner visits to UTAR, talk

Digi Broadband

     The trip today to Digi Centre SS2 wasn’t that smooth. The request of getting the plan terminated has some obstacles. The agent says that I would be considered as breaching the contract, and doesn’t approve the termination. However, on the other hand, the broadband team of the support line stated that it’s possible. Well, it’s likely due to the difference in communication, understanding, and area of administration… So I have to work out a way to let the Digi broadband team to convince the agent in the Digi Centre about this termination of  broadband service. I do understand the important of having the written statement and approval from different department for them.

     I left the centre with some confusions and little disappointment to nearby McDonald to make phone call, and I double confirmed it’s possible for termination within 7 days, and get a refund. (it’s lucky that my phone barely have enough battery to make this call, I was praying for that). Hence when the second time I get back to the centre, I try to convince the agent, as well as asking for a “phone” ((using the test line? , as my phone is very low in battery) to call to contact the broadband team and get them to talk to each other. It seems like giving hope. All it takes would be the black and white written statement from the broadband team, for the agent in the centre to approve my termination request. It takes quite a long time for reply from broadband team, as they seems to need something from their team leader. The time was near 6. it has exceeded the working hour there, it closed at 5.30pm. Luckily, there is email reply from broadband team consultant after the agent urges for a response as seeing I’m waiting. The consultant suggested the agent to collect my modem first in the email while waiting for their team leader. I return the modem and left the centre to wait for termination confirmation from the agent later.

     Afterwards, while I get back out there to wait for bus to go back to section 17, my phone has already turned off by itself due to low battery power. Still I manage to on for a short while, saw two miss calls from the Digi Centre SS2, and a message indicates that the termination procedure has been successful.

     When I have reached home, back to my room, while recharging my phone, I made another call to broadband support line to confirm again the termination status. I’m also enquire the details regarding the Digi Broadband Discover Campus Plan. Finally, I believe this has come to an end, and marks the new beginning for me to apply for internet service again, which is the Digi Broadband Discover Campus Plan.

Analysis: If I had studied the plan carefully, I would have save all these difficulties of getting the plan terminated and to do register again. I could have apply for the Digi Campus Plan in the first place at Digi SS2 Centre. Therefore, preparation, and study into the subject is important.

Secondly, if I didn’t make to call the broadband team, I might have stuck with the plan (after 7 days), and paying additional 15 for the modem fee; If I have slipped this opportunity to terminate my discover plan within 7 days, I would have miss the chance forever. As I could have modem for free if I get to switch to the discover campus plan…

I feel that life requires innovation, faith and quite a lot of determination as well as decision making skill. I’m glad that sometimes luck and opportunity is there. It just requires carefulness, and observation, as well as determination to seize it. I believe the Universe would have answered our request when we could emit our will power to the Universe. (as read from the book – the Secret) It seems that it would be heard and an opportunity is granted hidden , leave to us to discover the possibilities, and find our way to our request.

ME:  typing the text while lying on the bed, closing my eyes, resting. What a special interesting experience of writing. As if using my thoughts to generate a text for myself.    (Edited and Revised on 18 July 2009, 12:57 am)