简单，有意义。 It’s also part of hard work that burn up the passion, that comes the inspiration~

One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
'God', I asked, 'Can you give me one good reason not to quit?'
His answer surprised me...
'Look around', He said. 'Do you see the fern and the bamboo?'
'Yes', I replied.
'When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.. I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.
'In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit.' He said.
'Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.'
He asked me. 'Did you know that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots'.
'I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you.'
'Don't compare yourself to others.' He said.
'The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful.'
'Your time will come', God said to me.
'You will rise high'
'How high should I rise?' I asked.
'How high will the bamboo rise?' He asked in return.
'As high as it can?' I questioned.
'Yes.' He said, 'Give me glory by rising as high as you can.'
I left the forest and brought back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.

Coincidently, I want to look for a waste paper to jot down the things I want to do… I pick up a paper, which I wrote something on it in the past.

1 April 2006, SAT
四月的第一天，很应该认真的面对自己。反省一下，发现自己实在是没有目标的生活着。不难发现，当我们毫无目标的做一件事时，会不停地在原地打转，磋磨着时间。。。 到最后，即在痛苦着，也没有得到什么益处。

online RPG game 给一个很大的启示，
   了解自己的属系，锻练自己的本能，提升自己，不要轻易放弃。对自己要有信心，勇于接受挑战！除此之外，留意环境，寻找贵人，远离损友。

Back to present, I just feel that life there isn’t forever freedom from disaster, calamities, nor chaotic things. The only key to forever freedom is constant vigilance.

I shall remind myself with some principles…

• A man is only great when he acts from passion.
• Aiming the prizes, and victory isn’t practical or likely to achieve as compare to making every move a best move.
• POP – be persistent, optimistic, perseverance
• Action is the best way to prove than to argue, simply less talk, and do more.
• Remember to relax, and to enjoy life at own pace, handle pressure with care. Health is the most important.

dedicated to xiao boo boo, Happy and Healthy always…

Source from: http://sziur18.wordpress.com/2009/03/06/itou-yuna-trust-you-lyrics-translation/

Dedicated to “Boo Boo”…

Flowers dance in the wind,
rain moistens the Earth…
If everyone in this world want to live together,
why do they hurt each other?
Why do they separate?

No matter how far you go, you’ll still
be in my heart.
With that tender smile, I get buried and
held in a fragment of you…
Even if you feel pain…we’re tied together,
I believe we’ll meet one again.
I’m waiting for your love.

I love you, I trust you
I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.
I love you, I trust you
be it in light or darkness, because we trust each other,
so don’t let go.

Who has seen the world’s end?
Who informed us of the Journey’s End?
I can’t see the answer now, but even in long nights,
I hope you’ll continue on the path you believe in
because a light is waiting for you.

The song you’ve taught me
still lies within my heart.
Together with you, that tender voice resounds in my heart.
The fragment of my overflowing emotions
streak down my warm cheeks.
I’ve become strong right? I believe, we’re tied together.
I’m always by your side.

I love you, I trust you
for you, I shed these tears.
I love you, I trust you
you taught me what love is. Even if you get lost on your way,
I’ll be with you.

I love you, I trust you
I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.
I love you, I trust you
be it in light or darkness.
I love you, I trust you
be it sadness or happiness.
I love you, I trust you
I want to protect your everything.

Even if you get lost on your way,
I’ll be with you because we trust each other…
Don’t let go.

the song, the translation, “One World”

I’m tired of walking. My boots are falling apart…
I tread on the edge of hopelessness,
if I close my eyes, your smile faintly comes to mind.
The evening sea where the two of us frolicked,
during the setting sun we embrace,
that touch of tranquil normalcy is what happiness is.

Even if I’m hit by rain, even if i’m blown away by the wind…
even if i’m hurt there’ a love I want to protect.
it’s okay.
i will always be by your side.
no matter how far apart, the two of us are always in ONE WORLD.

Even if i defy fate, even if i have to cross great lengths of time,
even if i’m lost, there’s a place i want to return to
Even in this vast universe, I won’t let go,
as tiny as we are, the two of us are always in ONE WORLD.

"I have a dream...... , a song to sing, to help me cope with everything..." That's the beginning of the movie "Mamma Mia" that we watched. A musical-oriented movie, and most musics are composed by ABBA. It was a great and passionate movie for us, watching at One Utama Shopping Centre, GSC Cinema, for this weekend.

   We look around, and found the same classical guitar that we saw in Ipoh, Guitar Shop. It's the " Valencia " three quarter , ¾ size classical guitar. For mooi lan, it looks like a fate encounter. ;)  Eventually we bought this guitar, at RM150, come with a bag, and included a lesson CD, learn how to play classical guitar. Wow, an affordable price, with some good offer, so it's nice deal... so it's 10 Oct 2008, the newly acquired three quarter size Valencia Guitar, cheers dear dear....  =) I will support you, and help u in the learning process.. hehehe

-picture for the Google Logo on 8 August 2008, the memorable day, of Beijing 2008 Olympic Games.

  Me, staying in my own room, looking at my laptop screen, listening to music, to keep myself away from the borderless sense of loneliness. An Olympic, where get many people's attention, the world is watching its grand opening, many in the Stadium, and many homes, and family watching the tv for live broadcast... I'm here, lonely... missing home...

below are adapted text from [Beijing 2008 Official Website]http://www.beijing2008.cn/ceremonies/headlines/openingceremony/s214513696/

　8月8日20时，第29届奥林匹克运动会开幕式正式在国家体育场拉开帷幕

　　中国国家主席胡锦涛、国际奥委会主席雅克-罗格进入VIP贵宾席。

　　主持人：美丽的欢迎焰火绕场一周，在鸟巢上空花朵般绽放，激活了古老的日晷。在鸟巢上方显得格外漂亮，富有太阳投射的影子来测定时间计时日期的日晷，由日晷发出的时间之光点亮了鸟巢，点亮了2008面缶组成的矩形缶阵。

　　倒计时

　　主持人：一道耀眼的光环，激活了古老的日晷。独特的多媒体手段，拉开了开幕式的帷幕。日晷将光反射到场地的缶上。缶是中国古老的打击乐器，由陶土或青铜制成。早在夏、商时代，就有了“击缶而歌”的演奏。此刻它们正以光的律动向我们传递光阴的概念。

　　和着击打声，出现巨大的数字，每次光影数字的交锋，都预示着北京奥运的每秒临近，就让我们穿越时空，一同倒数，用震撼的节奏，激荡千年祖国的万里疆土，激荡中华民族的奔腾血脉，共同迎接奥运之光的莅临。

　　欢迎焰火

　　今夜星光灿烂，8月的中国以如火的热情诚邀八方来客，广纳四海宾朋，今夜礼花满天，仲夏的北京见证天国奇迹，铸造荣耀巅峰。

　　(现场主持人)欢迎中华人民共和国主席胡锦涛先生，国际奥林匹克委员会主席雅克-罗格先生。

 
the night before the Olympic game...

　　欢迎仪式

　　夜空璀璨，缶声震天，情谊无边，接下来我们将会看到一场独具中国古典艺术魅力的欢迎仪式，欢迎所有远道而来的朋友。

　　中国素以文明古国，礼仪之邦著称于世，几千年来不仅创造了灿烂悠久的历史文化，更形成了高尚道德准则和完整的礼仪规范。此刻，2008名乐手，一边击缶，一边高声吟诵着数千年前孔子写在论语中的名句，我们用独特的方式，表达北京最真挚的欢迎之情。欢迎所有热爱友谊与和平的朋友们来到北京，来到中国，欢迎所有热爱奥林匹克运动的朋友们来到奥林匹克大家庭。

　　历史足迹

　　在震撼的声响中，我们惊喜地看到，由焰火组成的巨大脚印正沿着北京的中轴路穿过天安门广场直奔国家体育场而来。29个焰火脚印象征着29届奥运会的历史足迹，也意味着中国追寻奥运之梦的百年跋涉正在一步步走近，梦想成真的时刻。7年前当中国人把申办报告交给国际奥委会的时候，就把绿色奥运、科技奥运和人文奥运的承诺交给了世界。7年后，中轴路上新生的鸟巢和孕育出生的奥林匹克森林公园成为了庄严的天安门广场最欢乐的伙伴。中轴路上这三个特色鲜明的北京地标，不仅体现了北京奥运的三大理念，更连接起了北京城市的昨天和今天。

　the fireworks...　

梦想五环

　　此刻的鸟巢繁星点点，尤如浩瀚的星河落入人间。美丽的飞天在繁星中歌舞，唯美浪漫，如梦如幻，为奥运五环增添一抹中国色彩，为奥运五环烙印一段中国的记忆，也像美丽的梦幻在中国人心中憧憬百年。一个由星光组成的奥运五环散发着璀璨的光芒，美丽的飞天把闪光的五环托起在北京的夜空，点亮了北京的夜色，点亮了每个热爱和平、热爱友谊、热爱奥林匹克运动的人心中跃动的激情。这个璀璨的五环会让我们记住北京的星空里终于有了奥运五环的印迹，更会让全世界都记住，奥运会的记忆中从此有了中国的传奇。

                         ...

   just some kind of emptiness tonight... well, probably I'm just miss home.. being with family and together watching the opening ceremony of Beijing 2008 Olympic on TV... Olympic where only organized once in every four years... 08.08.08 such an interesting and coincidence day... Especially, this year, it is organized by China... chinese culture... my own culture... It is something just different than the previous olympic games that I've seen... perhaps I'm always just missed out all the past Grand Opening of Olympic Games... miss out... 错过。。。

p/s... tonight is just particularly empty for me... these days and these years, perhaps just a sign of growth... 08.08.08 ~ cheers Beijing 2008 Olympic ~!

文章择选自墨西哥 《数字家庭》 2004 年十一月号

Rev. 2.0 english translation done by  cheongweelau

当我老了，不再是原来的我。

when I'm old already, I'm no longer like how I used to be.

请理解我，对我有一点耐心。

please try to understand me, and have some patience on me.

当我把菜汤淋到自己的衣服上时，当我忘记怎样系鞋带时，

when I spill the soup on my clothes, and I have forgotten how to tie my shoe lace, that time,

请想一想当初我是如何手把手的教你。

please recall that how I used to teach, while holding your hands together...

当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语，

when I'm repeating something something that you were bored to hear,

请耐心地听我说，不要打断我。

please be patient with me, try not to interrupt me.

你小的时候，我不得不重复那讲过千百遍的故事，直到你进入梦乡。

remembered that in your childhood, I had repeatably telling the same stories, for u to fall into sleep.

当我需要你帮我洗澡时，

when I need you to help me in bathing,

请不要责备我。

please don't scold me.

还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗？

still remember how I used to coax you to take your bath in your childhood?

当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时，

when I fall behind in the era of new technology, and new things,

请不要嘲笑我。

please don't tease me.

想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个“为什么”。

recall that how I used to answer each of your "question -WHY" patiently.

当我由于双腿疲累而无法行走时，

when my legs were weak, and unable to walk,

请伸出你年轻有力的手挽扶我。

please show your young and strong arms to hold me up.

就像你小时候学习走路时，我扶你那样。

just like when you're a toddle learning to walk, how I was holding you.

当我忽然忘记我们谈话时的主题，

when I suddenly forget and lost in our conversation,

请给我一些时间让我回想。

allow me to have some time to recall it.

其实对我来说，谈论什么并不重要，

Actually, conversation isn't that much important to me,

只要你能在一旁听我说，我就很满足。

as long as you can stay beside and listen to me, I'm gratitude enough.

当你看着老去的我，请不要悲伤。

while u're seeing me aging, don't be sad.

理解我，支持我，就像你刚开始学习如何生活时我对你那样。

understand me, and give me a support, just like how I treat you when you started to learn about lfe.

当初我引导你走上人生的路，如今请陪我走完最后的路。

I used to guide you on your path of living, now please accompany me to finish my last journey.

给我你的爱和耐心，我会报以感激的微笑，

give me your love and patience, and i will reply with a grateful smile.

这微笑中凝结著我对你无限的爱。

in this smile it has all my never ending love for you.

*NOTE this article that was given as a souvenir during the end of Computer Science Year One Semester Two, Analysis and Design of Information System course... by Dr Khor, our lecturer. Well obviously nothing related to the course, just a piece of meaningful article for share.

my dear dear... hybrid of cute little innocent, and a "hard neck" (extremist)...

Programming always the reason.... to argue... Yes... yes.... I'm a lousy programmer to pass my knowledge... just wonder why... each time so happen that have to finish thing the night before tomorrow is Assessment due date... Doing last minute works... makes life hectic especially when dealing with emotional one... plus I think i'm an "emo" kids also... (emo - emotional)

       wuuuuwaaaaahhhhhh... (T~T)... cry cry that we always cry together... emotionally arguing.... but for nothing actually... sometimes... I really felt like... making movie all times... >.< After 10 minutes...~30minutes quarrel in tears... turns out... lose the point pf continuing eh? And I would start to say... boo boo boo~ bu yao ku liao.... lai.... sayang sayang.... Very kelian looks.... innocent .. (@~@)

      Dear dear ..... CHIAK~ hehe... chiak chiak chiak... sometimes... a lot of disappointment fills up my head... and I'm getting fed up... and so walk on my own... and like today... when I turn back notice I've walked too far ... and shetrying to hide.. and trying to run away from me..... chase chase... catch up... makes me felt like want to laugh+ mad :S.... lost control a little... chuckled out while catching her ~ Boo~

       well well...... boo~....... though might be a bit kelam kabut...~~~~~~~~ how we get along... I've really learn to put down the useless pride within me... learn up the responsibility... being more generous... I don't expect much le.... well hopefully one day... be dependant ohh.... and sayang sayang ahh...... grow up big BIG, and become strong ahh~ BOo~ it may sound like kiddy hehe...... but isn't that just make life a bit more cheerful? Pretend to be matured... but if only half boiled.... aiya.... hehe..... lai lai....(come come)   boo CHIAK chiak~...... wwwwhhhhhhheeeeewwwww..........

      Never give up.... brave and go on okie? Boo Boo~~ muaxz.... :) when u're not happy.. remember to boo~ boo~ boo~ more ahh.. and CHiak~ hehe

柴，米，油，盐，酱，醋，茶 。。。

琴，棋，书，画，诗，酒，花 。。。

feels like as if I've forgotten my own mother tongue... living in all english environment... coincidently... listen to radio, come across... it, and did a little search in internet.... :)

Life is all about it...

only if u have given up urself, then it's called a failure... Something that's not succeeded in the first attempt, it's an obstacle... which u just have to go through it again...

     It is a matter if u can raise up from ur defeat/failure... , not neccesary to be immediately, take time to heal... then raise again...

ignorance, wrong situation, carelessness;  harm and damages...; tears.

"...I'm cryptic, and I'm secretive, but my heart is pure..."

Having some difficulties expressing myself... I always hope to reduce my mistake, instead of giving a lot wrong signal and misleading expression... I often believe that truth and the original intention mostly wrapped in hard shell, or mostly being labelled as the other motives. It is hard for us to identify and to penetrate the shell, to know and see what is inside...

"...... many enlightening thoughts is actually came from sadness...  and woes... "

Love is related to bond between people. When a love is misinterpreted, the next thing we get is hurt, deeply. When a person is linked to a person in a way, relationship exists. When there is appreciation towards each other, there begin a thin, a fragile bond. Bond can be strengthen, it can be broken; anytime. Bond is actually born from love.

"I have never known about it, and I have not really understood it; until I come to the situation, and experience it... "

Something that's expected, mostly meet with rejection, and neglect. We have anticipation, we have feelings, and we have thought that we want to express to, and we want somebody there for us, at least to listen to us, and give us support... we anticipated that we'll recognized when we need to. I would expect person that whom I considered love me would give me support... like in the past, when I'm down, I hope my parents would sense my feeling and approach me. But things aren't like that. When I want to talk, having something to express, often not getting like what I expected. They are not really so happen in a mood that would know that actually I have a problem, and I need an attention. Just like I've realized my biggest weakness today, I'm not sensitive to know, when somebody to actually need me, I'm not sensitive enough to see and realize it. In fact, when one is seeking for attention and full support, another one needs to be very sensitive to see it... Often everything happens in a way that not what we really want it to be.

Sadness often is something tends to be avoided compare to Happiness. We actually want happiness, but most of the time, we're getting sadness. Which it is a contrast, in fact, sadness leaves the most impact compare to happiness. Through each sadness, each disappointment, and failure, if and only if it was review positively, and it was recovered... it actually strengthen the bond. The key is how we ever handle it? Forgiveness, and the promise to make improvement, the willingness to understand, and to admit and to realize, but not the least, commitment, and devotion. I'm not the one would have patient, or able to just wait and see for emotional estrangement matter to be left unresolved for more than 1 day, and I'm grateful that I've found somebody would share the same common understanding... with me. Arguments, and quarrels makes the "LOVE" prettier each time when it is able to reach a common understanding. It broaden the aspect of life, and acceptance.

Love is actually skeptical and doubtful, tends to be related to pure, utmost, and great. Which it quite like a contradiction... wonder why we make it so complicated. If love were to be a complex algorithm, it can be fairly simple - that just "BELIEVE" it. You're being loved. Eventually a person who loves you may not be sensitive enough, try make him learnt from that. Let's think about Love is great. It maybe too great we think of it... actually demystifying it... it is actually a greatest gift that somebody that care for you trying to give. It may not always be perfect, at least somehow after gone through quite a number of misunderstanding... and so-so arguments... I learnt one thing, actually loves, is fairly simple... just need to be sensitive enough towards the person's feeling, "give" when it is "needed" - A love in need is a love indeed. Think of love is a highly evolved form. Then... its former self would be - like? crush? or maybe lust? or maybe draft from "affection" ?? - Love is a non-stop evolving extreme abstract feeling...

The bond between people is actually exists based on love. Elsewhere, love is too abstract, being highly look up to... often anticipation meets with disappointment. Expectation may not always be fulfilled, without being expressed effectively. Thus... give space for love to grow... and everything. In fact, disappointment and sadness from arguments or quarrels, actually strengthen the bond if and only if we could really reconcile... and those sadness actually yields happiness, and shape whom we're today. Though the bonding can be fragile, can be twisted, broken, attacked... In fact, it could last FOREVER... if and only if we have an unyielding will that want to strengthen the bond,  the will power to protect it, to treasure the love... which never fade.( which u never want to give up on me, I never want to give up on u... our bond will be strengthen by this...)